Me

By Saoban Zainab Olayemi
^{∙ Girls Senior High School, Agege, Lagos ∙}

I told you that I am not the one,
But you said I can be one.
I’m not who you think I am.
I’m better if it’s me only,
For I always do things on my own.
Stand strong and stand tall,
I embrace my flaws,
Stay independent and feel contented.
It applies to everyone, especially you.
You don’t need people’s permission to be great,
Creativity lies in everyone.
You just have to look within yourself.
All of our dreams can come true,
Only if you have the courage to pursue them.
As for me, I know it is never enough,
Because I can never satisfy, no one
Who is not satisfied with me.
Cause they don’t know, the pain and the struggle,
The price you pay for things that are useless,
Just to fit in.
They didn’t realize that if they don’t get close enough,
They can’t see the real me.
I fight my battles everyday with no one to fight it for me.
They break me to mend and break me again.
But to be honest, I still feel like it is my fault.
I shed tears for no reason,
and sometimes I feel like pulling my own heart out.

And unfortunately for me,
I’m color in the world of colorless.
Colorless in the world of the color.
The angel in the realm of devils,
And a devil in heaven.
You can’t save me but I can save myself.
My standard too high,
You have to reach there,
Don’t get me wrong,
That doesn’t mean you should not try.
Sometimes the impossible can become possible,
Because of some actions.
I get encouraged by foes
rather than family and friend.
I know jealousy is a common feeling,
But I feel like mine has a way of controlling me.
My feelings play me like a puppet
And I have become its servant.
Sometimes, in my lucid period,
I think about things that are out of this world;
Things that are in my imagination,
I may look so calm and cool,
But only God knows my intentions and schemes.
For those that think they can boss me around,
Better think twice,
I can explode like a nuclear bomb
If you step on my nerves.

I know this might look like a bunch of nonsense
Look deep into it and you may find sense in nonsense.
Because this is me and I can also be you.